buddha… take the wheel

“A man asked Gautama Buddha, “I want happiness.” Buddha said, “First remove “I,” that’s Ego, then remove “want,” that’s Desire. See now you are left with only “Happiness.”

i have been so intent on getting going with the trainings that some of the enjoyment of everyday life left the building quietly and without notice. last weekend i had to stop, take a few minutes, and face down a few truths about myself and what i know about life.

i can’t

you can

i might as well let you

it’s a pretty simple philosophy yet i can complicate it so effortlessly with in the quagmire of my own desires. if i had forgotten, i am truly human and consistently flawed. i have come to believe that my worth and my contribution has some value (core belief) which is a huge distance to travel in the 11 years of recovery. and for that i am forever thankful. but i continue to lose my way as i try to give what i can. i am not in charge. and i get confused about whether i am a “good witch or a bad witch”. there is never a question about whether there is ability but i do struggle with motivation. and control.

“Jesus Take The Wheel”

She was driving last Friday on her way to Cincinnati On a snow white Christmas Eve Going home to see her Mama and her Daddy with the baby in the backseat Fifty miles to go and she was running low on faith and gasoline It’d been a long hard year

She had a lot on her mind and she didn’t pay attention She was going way too fast Before she knew it she was spinning on a thin black sheet of glass She saw both their lives flash before her eyes She didn’t even have time to cry She was so scared She threw her hands up in the air

Jesus take the wheel Take it from my hands Cause I can’t do this on my own I’m letting go So give me one more chance Save me from this road I’m on Jesus take the wheel

It was still getting colder when she made it to the shoulder And the car came to a stop She cried when she saw that baby in the backseat sleeping like a rock And for the first time in a long time She bowed her head to pray She said I’m sorry for the way I’ve been living my life I know I’ve got to change So from now on tonight

Jesus take the wheel Take it from my hands Cause I can’t do this on my own I’m letting go So give me one more chance Save me from this road I’m on Oh, Jesus take the wheel

Oh, I’m letting go So give me one more chance Save me from this road I’m on From this road I’m on Jesus take the wheel

Oh, take it, take it from me. Oh, wow, ohhhhh.

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