prayer of survival

We don’t set out to save the world; we set out to wonder how other people are doing and to reflect on how our actions affect other people’s hearts.

– Pema Chodron

i went for a checkup today and i got vaklempt for some strange reason. i have been going to the doctor for years dealing with my health issues.  melancholy quickly and quietly rolled over me like a summer fog in san francisco.  i miss my long ago friends sometimes. not usually at a medical appointment, but there it was.

and i get so wrapped up in where i am it my life and my work, that i lose touch with the simple grace of having life. for 20 percent of my life i didn’t believe i would have any more.

oops. here i still am. so it’s back to gratitude for me today upon visiting my pcp. yes i need to do many things to increase the quality of my current life. but more importantly, it is imperative for me to simply appreciate life the way it is. those friends i miss don’t have my luxury. no choice in the matter.

so please placate me as i offer up a simple and truthful prayer of survival.  surviving is the sweetest gift i have.

Prayer of Survival

I am a survivor, a grateful survivor, this day, the nightmare is behind me, it is over, my spirit is healing and renewing, my mind is clearer, within my body, the cells are relaxing and I am free. This day, I am grateful for my victory over fear, gladdened by challenges met, and peace gained, all who helped me were a gift, and I am grateful. Today my world is a brighter, happier place, the past is increasingly behind me now.