to have and not to hold

“Your hand opens and closes, opens and closes. If it were always a fist or always stretched open, you would be paralysed. Your deepest presence is in every small contracting and expanding, the two as beautifully balanced and coordinated as birds’ wings.” ― Rumi, The Essential Rumi

what a difference a day can make. i found myself feeling so trapped in a very bad situation today and i over-reacted. my reaction didn’t help the situation, nor did it really help me, but react i did. i used to laugh as i would tell other people “put the crazy stick down”- i wish i had remembered that today.  luckily, i am becoming comfortable with the philosphy of 2 concepts over these recovering years….1) that i don’t have to be right in order to be happy… 2) i can be resilient and survive no matter what the outcome of a situation.

i don’t remember these 2 things up front all the time. sometimes it takes me longer to remember them than i would prefer. but i do come to the place where i remember them which is the easy button for me. nothing is worth so much that i need to sacrifice my sanity. i can let go of almost anything and i will survive. after all, through the grace of this life, i have come through so very much already in spite of my small mindedness and my ego.  and i retain a little humor and some perspective, too.

so no matter what caused my reaction today, i don’t have to be stuck in that situation bubble forever. just the knowing of that helps me not hold on to the crazy.

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